Just Feeling Lonely Is All
Hey there. It's been quite a while since I've visited you here. It's a Saturday night, and I'm up past when I figure I should be in bed, and I'm feeling lonely as is so often the case. I don't have any earth-shattering revelations to jot down, and I don't feel one of my creative witty moods coming on either. Just feeling lonely is all.
I don't want to sit here and feel sorry for myself either. It was Tam's Birthday party tonight, and someone was kind enough to point out that I'm getting close to 40. That's a little unnerving. 30 I could handle just fine, but 40 - no, that's definitely a sign I'm on the downhill slope of this life. Unless of course, I do manage to reach 100. But either way, 40 seems kind of old to me. I'm not thrilled about it.
You know, the plus side of 40 is I'll be that much closer to seeing Lina and Pom Pom again. I can't wait for that moment. But I'd be kidding myself and anyone reading this if I didn't also admit that I worry about being single the rest of my days, never having any children to raise, and possibly settling for a relationship that is less than what I truly want. I know that in all this fretting I am forgetting God. I am forgetting that He has told me over and over again, if I'll just trust Him, He'll give me the desires of my heart. I'm forgetting that He says He loves me and that Jesus said He wants me to have an abundant life. I'm beginning to remember these things again.....
God, Father, I am reminded that you are the God of Comfort. You know my loneliness that I feel almost every night. You know the burning desire in me to remarry and have a family. You see all things in me. I surrender myself to You once again, and ask that You help me to put my trust in You. You are Love. You are the Giver of all good gifts under heaven and on Earth. You will not allow me to be tempted beyond what I am able to endure. You know my every need, you know my every emotion, my every desire. You know my fears. You console me. In You I put my trust this rest of the evening. In Jesus' name I come before You, amen.
I don't want to sit here and feel sorry for myself either. It was Tam's Birthday party tonight, and someone was kind enough to point out that I'm getting close to 40. That's a little unnerving. 30 I could handle just fine, but 40 - no, that's definitely a sign I'm on the downhill slope of this life. Unless of course, I do manage to reach 100. But either way, 40 seems kind of old to me. I'm not thrilled about it.
You know, the plus side of 40 is I'll be that much closer to seeing Lina and Pom Pom again. I can't wait for that moment. But I'd be kidding myself and anyone reading this if I didn't also admit that I worry about being single the rest of my days, never having any children to raise, and possibly settling for a relationship that is less than what I truly want. I know that in all this fretting I am forgetting God. I am forgetting that He has told me over and over again, if I'll just trust Him, He'll give me the desires of my heart. I'm forgetting that He says He loves me and that Jesus said He wants me to have an abundant life. I'm beginning to remember these things again.....
God, Father, I am reminded that you are the God of Comfort. You know my loneliness that I feel almost every night. You know the burning desire in me to remarry and have a family. You see all things in me. I surrender myself to You once again, and ask that You help me to put my trust in You. You are Love. You are the Giver of all good gifts under heaven and on Earth. You will not allow me to be tempted beyond what I am able to endure. You know my every need, you know my every emotion, my every desire. You know my fears. You console me. In You I put my trust this rest of the evening. In Jesus' name I come before You, amen.
posted by wwiiguy at 2:08 AM
1 Comments:
I know this prayer is still going up today.
Mine joins yours.
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