Introductions

Hey all, I am curious to find out who, if anyone, will actually think my journal is read-worthy enough to pop in from time to time to read about me. I promise to give you lots of whining, griping and complaining about all the hardships and frustrations and self-critiquing that seems to accompany me on my second time around being a single christian guy. Going on how I've used a private journal in the past, I suspect you will get quite a bit of dirt on me. I've often considered burning my old journals because upon rereading old entries, it seemed like nothing more than a barfing session with my attempting to purge myself of days, weeks, months of pent up guilt, shame, anger, sadness, and other miscellaneous forms of pain. The funny thing is that if you were ever to meet me in person, judging from what my friends and family say about me, you'd most likely think I was a pretty friendly and positive guy to hang out with. Maybe a little odd, and maybe somewhat of a nerd or goofwad at times, but nonetheless, a "good guy." But I guess my own harshness with myself slips out more often than I tend to think, because most would also say that I'm too hard on myself. I am my own worst critic and enemy at times.

On another slant to this journal, I do tend to express myself best through writing. I have written some 40 or so poems--usually when I'm either very inspired or going through a really trying time in life. And every now and then I've been known to have a topic pop into my head and run with it in an essay form. Occasionally I even entertain myself with my writings.

Here you are guaranteed a good number of boring entries for when you need some reading material to put you to sleep; another fair share of entries to remind you that there is always someone who is a little more confused, screwed up, and demented than yourself; several where you will just want to jump through the screen and yell at me to stop my whining and complaining because my life really isn't that hard and I am just making tough for myself; a few that will make you laugh or at least smile; and every now and then, I will write something that will cause you to say to yourself, "Wow, I'd like to meet this guy!"

So, with that warning, here begins the story of the fabulously fascinating (notice the alliteration) life of........you thought I was going to say my name, didn't you? Hehe, I'm not quite that much of an open book ;)